Erin Patterson told the court that she hoped she had never told her Facebook friend in a private group chat that “I vowed to fuck God” was associated with her in-laws, saying she was ashamed but wanted to share her frustration, which meant she had a “big cheer team” about her problems.

Patterson also told the jury at her triple murder trial that she had never been diagnosed with ovarian cancer and had a history of "consulting Google Consulting" and hoped to bring her family together despite formally separating her estranged husband Simon seven years ago.

The day after the witness box, Patterson was also asked about her relationship with Simon about child support a year before the alleged murder.

Patterson, 50, faces three counts of murder and one count of murder involving four lunch guests who poisoned her - a relative of her estranged husband, Simon Patterson, Beef Wellington served at her home in Leongatha on July 29, 2023.

Patterson pleaded not guilty to Simon's parents Don and Gail Patterson, as well as his aunt Heather Wilkinson, and attempted to murder Simon's uncle and Heather's husband Ian Wilkinson.

Patterson's lawyer said the death cap mushroom poisoning was a tragic and terrible accident.

During her attorney Colin Mandy SC’s inquiry Tuesday with Patterson, Patterson talked about discussing two issues in the family with Simon and Don and Don and Gail in late 2022: the financial situation of their children, and the struggles of their son.

She said Patterson asked Don and Gail to mediate between her and Simon.

The court showed the court a series of information on these issues, including Don't apologize for possible misrepresentation of Simon's statement, which Patterson said she was grateful that it was uncomfortable.

"Simon appears to have misunderstood the child support assessment covers every charge for children in the sun," Patterson wrote in December 2022.

Patterson also asked her and Simon that she and Simon felt they were not invited to the "heating" exchange after Gail's 70th bar lunch.

Meanwhile, she is discussing these issues with Simon and his parents, who Patterson posted to her friends in a group chat.

She said she sent the messages because “I was really hurt, really frustrated and felt a little desperate” and it was “a safe and ventilated space for all of us”.

Patterson told the court that she had read a message in the court before, saying, “I’m fucking God to God.

“They don’t deserve it.”

Members of Patterson and Wilkinson families, including Ian Wilkinson, were in court Tuesday.

Patterson was also asked about a separate message while writing because she was “tired of this shit”, had nothing to do with Pattersons, and wrote “Fuck em”, and she shared her frustration because “I know these women might support me and get annoyed by these things, so I told them I’d say I’d be in a position to be in trouble and then make it big, which would give you a big cheer, and it’s a big cheering lineup.”

Patterson also talked about receiving inheritance from his grandmother and mother, which allowed her to lend about $1.2 million to Simon's siblings and their partners, and to have her buy several properties and travel extensively overseas.

Patterson opened a second-hand bookstore in the Western Australian town of Pemberton, then married Simon and their son to the couple's daughter, before moving back to Victoria, the court heard.

The reason for the move, she said, is to be closer to Don and Gale after birth, because their son loves spending time with his "Nana and Dad" and cousins.

Another separation between her and Simon continued until the "formal" separation took place in late 2015.

Patterson said that despite this, she added his name to the title of Leongatha’s property, which she moved in in 2022 because she wanted to show him something “tangible” to understand her desire for family reunion.

"That's what I want. I do it because I want some way to show with Simon that's what I really believe and want," she said.

Patterson seemed to get emotional when asked how her relationship with Don and Gale changed after this “formal” separation.

“It never changed,” she said.

"I'm just their daughter, they just keep loving me."

Patterson also introduced the court to the history of health problems she and her children encountered, which eroded her belief in the health system.

She said she had never had ovarian cancer and had no needle biopsy. The court had previously heard of her exchanging text messages about a biopsy with Gail, and it was Patterson's "false pretend" to use cancer diagnosis as a lunch.

Patterson said both parties in her family have a history of ovarian cancer and she was worried that she also had ovarian cancer.

"By then, I've had symptoms for several months," Patterson said.

"I feel very tired. I keep my abdominal pain. I have chronic headaches. I have a lot of weight in a short period of time, just like my feet and hands, my hands seem to keep a lot of fluid."

She said "Let me go over the edge" to GP was that her wedding ring was no longer suitable, and when she resized, they were not suitable when she picked up the jeweler from the jeweler.

At this time, on another occasion when she was worried that she had a brain tumor, she "consulted Dr. Google."

She said she realized that doing so wasted time and the time of medical professionals, but she didn’t trust the healthcare system because of how it handles children’s problems.

Patterson's evidence continues.